In Search of: A Sounding Board

Wow.  What a day.  What a week.  What a month.  What a year, so far!  Where to even begin?  I’ve been completely absent from the website for a while.  I’m not sure what happened.  Well, there’s the issue with planning a new site and wanting to get everything updated and running beautifully before putting my writing out in the world again.  But I think, perhaps, that was an excuse of sorts.  I mean, yes, I really do want to get my new site up and going and shiny and new.  But I haven’t actually gotten around to doing that.  So that excuse is lame-o.  I think, in reality, I got a bit burned out on the blog.  I started worrying about what I was writing too much and actually writing too little.  I sort of forgot I started this whole thing for fun.  And I killed the fun out of it.

But I’ve got about 10,000 things on my mind at the moment.  And after a mini-breakdown tonight over something as silly as a chipped mirror, I realize I need my outlet back.

Long story short — remember that house I wanted to buy?  The one asked the universe to let me have?  Yeah, that’s the one.  Well, I bought it.  And I was excited for about 22.5 hours before I had my first panic attack.  What had I done?!?!  Yep.  It wasn’t pretty.  And now the house has taken over my life as I’ve attempted to get it done and pretty and perfect.  Except it’s not done.  It’s not close to done.  And it’s not perfect or pretty.  Don’t get me wrong.  It’s a great house.  It’s just that I lived in an apartment that was absolutely spectacular perfect as if it were made just for me.  And then I moved into a house that needed  a little updating, a little work, a LOT of painting and was nowhere near “Heather-perfect.”  It’s sort of sucking the life out of me.  I’ve had the house just over a month now, and I sort of hate the dam thing.  (Mind you. I don’t really hate it.  It’s a great house — in theory.)

And maybe I hate it a little bit because buying the house forced me to cancel postpone my summer travel plans.  And perhaps this is killing me a little inside.  I had an AMAZING summer planned.  I was off to Australia and the Great Barrier Reef and the Whitsundays and Fraser Island.  I was off to Kauai and the Na Pali coast.  Now I’m just off to Home Depot.  And I’m bitter.

So here’s what I’m going to do: use my website as a sounding board for the remainder of the summer.  I hope you don’t mind.  Because I REALLY need it.  I need an outlet.  I also need to win the lottery, but that’s not going to happen.  So I think a sounding board will have to do.

Okay.  I’m tired and my eyes are telling me to get off the computer or I’m going to get a migraine.  Thus, off I go.  Tell me something fun — how’s your summer been so far?!?!

This entry was posted in Ramblings and Rants, The House.